30/04/24
Just wanted to put a small entry out there, I'm alive and my cold is gone (?) but I'm still coughing. Had a strained rib muscle from the coughing for about 3 weeks, but that's long since healed. Went to the annual beach training with my club last month. Was in a car crash on Monday— I'm fine (physically) and the other driver was alright as well. The car I got less than three months ago is now most likely written off, and I have to sit with all these feelings on my birthday tomorrow. There were some suspicions of the other guy speeding, but regardless I still have no car and we'll likely have to send it to the wreckers for bugger all money despite it's great condition (aside from my back passenger door, it's quite literally jammed shut from the impact). Life was good for a while and now it's kinda balls again, you know how it is. Fuck my stupid baka life etc etc etc surely this just means I'm about to become the NZ Prime Minister or whatever. My first order of business will be exiling David Seymour to Disappointment Island with nothing but his shitty school lunches (FOR LEGAL REASONS, AND I CANNOT STRESS THIS ENOUGH, THIS IS A JOKE).
24/01/24
I've been sick with some kind of respiratory illness for 2.5ish weeks now and it's barely gotten better... I have no idea what I have after two GP visits, but I assume it's some kind of bronchitis (not whooping cough according to him though, at least). I'm on my second round of antibiotics now and my GP gave me some prednisone too, since I've started having coughing fits that I couldn't breathe after over the last couple days. Frankly, I'm pretty miserable and am starting to feel depressed about my lack of ability to exercise in any capacity. I'm beginning to think I'm not going to have enough time to prepare for a sparring tournament in a couple months, and will probably have to miss another grading. Exercise and the social aspect of martial arts really helps with my depression, so not being able to do anything for the last little while has made me completely and utterly miserable to be around. I'm sick of being sick.
02/01/24
Happy New Year. I started it off with the zip on my bag breaking, and by eating so much edamame my stomach hurt for like two hours.
27/12/24
Merry (belated) Christmas. I managed to pick up a new Kindle for myself in order to save on shelf space, and have been making decent headway on properly organising my room. Even though I told him not to, my partner spent way too much money on me for Christmas, so I ended up carting a lot of stuff back with me after I spent the afternoon with him on the 24th. I'm very grateful he got me a lot of nice things on his trip, don't get me wrong, I just get very weird about people spending money on me, haha!
21/12/24
I've been trying to get back into the swing of coding, so I whipped up this re-do of my "now" page to include a nice little status.cafe addition and microblog, mostly just because they looked fun. Being productive is a little hard right now given my lack of energy, but I managed to find a nice gift for my partner's family and talked to an old coworker today, so at least I did something. I really need to finish my Christmas shopping and wrap some presents, though...

Currently

I'm currently in my ???. I had some interviews and life was good for a while, but it sucks ass again. You know how it is. Trying my best to be hopeful, I guess.

At the moment, I'm playing Final Fantasy XIV, and lots of it. Cosmic exploration. That's all I gotta say. I maxed out Monk and am working on Paladin now. It's fun.

I'm currently looking forward to something good happening. GOD IF YOU ARE OUT THERE TAKE MERCY ON ME. PLEASE. FOR FIVE MINUTES. LET MY FAMILY WIN THE LOTTO. GIVE ME A JOB AND MY MUM'S BUSINESS SOME WORK. PLEASE. JUST ONE BREAK I AM BEGGING YOU. Also looking forward to putting together my Himeji Castle LEGO set, which was my birthday present this year. I am normal about Japanese castles and can be trusted around scale models of them in any form.

One goal I'm pursuing at the moment is chilling the fuck out. I am not normal or well-adjusted right now. God bless.